Obsession, of sorts

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I hate how I sometimes start thinking about something painful (my stepdad, how I haven't seen my little sisters in too long, etc.) and I can't stop thinking about it. I was just starting to fall asleep and I thought about something and, well, here I am awake again, and that's led me to think about/do all kinds of other stuff, and, well, my brain is too active. You would think with a brain this active I'd actually get something done every once in awhile.

I finally found my keys late this afternoon, though, after 12 hours or so of frantic panicking and on and off searching. I very nearly had my first anxiety attack in, well, ages.

Findhappyplacefindhappyplacefindhappyplace...

I really need to work on something for The Disordered Times...I keep forgetting to look out for articles to write on. I think I'm going to make it a goal to get my first article for DT done by the end of March. In the meantime, if you're reading this, go visit it.

Amazing.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

I won't write for long because I'm very drowsy and ready for bed, but I just had to express that I had an amazing time tonight. I was at my counselor's earlier today, and we were discussing building a network of adopted family since I've lost a lot of my connections to my family, and one of the ways I wanted to do this was to get active in the local Vajrayana community again. Well, one of the members organized a dinner at Cafe Annapurna (awesome food, if you're ever in Tallahassee), so I went to that tonight and just...the atmosphere was lovely (and the food was beyond belief. Just...wow).

I miss doing regular practice with people. I'm glad I'm getting into it again. I just had to babble on about how contented I am for a few minutes, so now I'm going to go to bed so I won't be ridiculously exhausted in the morning for work.